………. BEING ME

Lost in the labyrinth of thoughts I wondered;
Tread on that soul not traded

I sought an answer, I wanted to know….
I looked at the abyss…
But it looked back at me.

I asked the ocean waves lashing on the shores,
The murmur was hard to decipher

I cajoled the birds high up in the sky,
But it smirked and said…… YOU better try.

I questioned the unfailing pole star,
It promised eternity, but did not take me any far.

I asked the twirl of smoke that rose,
Off a reducing stick;
But it gave me a task ---
It told me to unwind its fold.

I sought the answer in the music of my empty glass,
But it echoed the music of my melancholic heart.

I looked for it in my kohl smudged eyes
These eyes had once seemed so wise
Now dumb-- only an origin of a hue less stream.

I looked for it in my innocent loud laughter,
In the tears, when I did not cry…
But it vanished soon and before I could try.

I thought my chase would finally be shut,
But I discovered in me, venom instead of blood.

I shudder to think I don’t know ME!!!!
My failed quest to know, who is me…
But it unleashed in me a mystical glee…

Let it be – let it be
What lies entangled in me..

For the answer may lead me to a bottomless concave,
The darkness of a sinister design,
compelling me to hate myself.

So I am happy being me,
I don’t want to cry,
I don’t want to pry.